Thursday, April 15, 2010

I Choose to Run

OK, so I haven't been great about contributing to this new blog. I think about things to write while I am running, but never actually sit down and write it. Why? Well, the truth is I have been a little frustrated with running. My relationship with running is very love/hate and lately I have been on the hate side.  Quite simply, running has annoyed me lately. As I watch my friends get faster, I seem to be getting slower.... seriously – I am getting significantly slower! At the end of a long run, everyone is smiling and joking and I want to throw my water bottle, shoes, iPod... whatever I can get my hands on, at their shiny happy faces (but I don't – so stop gasping in disgust).  Because for me... running is hard. Really hard! And yes, I know it is hard for everyone... but I can't see beyond my own little bubble. The only thing I like about running right now is telling people how far/often I run. Yet, as much as I have disliked this sport over the past few weeks, I religiously followed my training program and I ran.  And this morning as I was trying to untangle myself from my dog's leashes and the garbage can we collided with – it hit me! I ran! Even on a day I wanted to stay in bed, I chose to run. There wasn't anyone or anything making me get out of bed, put on my dirty Brooks and head out the door for a three mile run – but I still did it. My dogs, while they thoroughly enjoyed the run, would have been just as content to curl up in a lazy heap on top of my bed. But there I was, disengaging myself from dog leashes and garbage cans because I chose to run.  This was my ah-ha moment.  

Running is a choice.

The days when I run and am not concerned about overall time, pace and any number of terms I had never heard of before "training" – those days are great. Those are the days when I love running. So from here on out I am going to strive to take that attitude with me on all of my runs. After all, running is something I choose to do – why not love it?  

P.S. I signed up for BendFit – a marathon training group.

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